Everybody’s Changing and I Don’t Feel the Same

I found a song by Keane that pretty much is me right now. Or was. I’ll explain after.

“Everybody’s Changing” by Keane

You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can

You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing and I don't feel the same

You're gone from here
Soon you will disappear
Fading into beautiful light
'cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing and I don't feel the same

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing and I don't feel the same

 

To me this song is about seeing everyone around you change, and there’s nothing you can do about it. It can be a good or bad change. I have friends from grade school who no longer are my friends, or who I still love but are not my friends. Does that make sense? It’s because we’ve chosen very different paths. We can’t reach each other any more. Then I have the friends who are going off to college or graduating or who already have done so. It’s a very good thing for them, and they are wonderful examples, but I find myself wishing things could be the same again.

I guess I wanted to stay the same forever. But how boring would that be? That’s what the first verse is about for me. His friend or whoever says he’s going to stay the same, but how does one stay the same? It’s impossible. We have many defining moments in our lives--we learn, grow, develop, laugh, love, hurt, cry. Everything we go through leaves a mark. So I won’t stay the same. It’s probably for the best if I do change. ^-^ At the same time though, staying the same and being yourself are very close yet different to me. I don’t want to stay the same. I want to stay myself. I want to learn and laugh and grow and change and cry and hurt if it means I will be a better version of myself.

Well, from here on I am going to try my best to embrace change! (I said try. Don’t get mad at me if I still have off days…)

ヽ(´ー｀)ﾉ <—dancing happy eastern emoticon

♪┏(・o･)┛♪┗ ( ･o･) ┓♪┏ ( ) ┛♪┗ (･o･ ) ┓♪┏(･o･)┛♪ <—But this one is really dancing! :-)

Love,

Mariah